2 more days until school reopens!
Happy.cus im so bored at home i just end up eating junk food and getting fatter day by day.
Sian.cus the thought of homework and short hours of sleep just kills me.
Read jia xin's bloggy.
i didnt know you were feeling angry and pissed yesterday,and i dont know why,but we're not to blame.
sometimes people dont see it when you're angry,and sometimes they do but they didnt say it out.but that doesnt mean they dont love and care for you.
And you could have told us what happened when we're sitting at the table.we'll listen.and you always say you couldnt find the time to talk to us...but you can just tell them on the conference.just like that.not that im trying to make everybody upset again.since you've posted your feelings,i wanna say what i think too.even if that will make the distance between us longer.
is it that we dont trust you,or is it that you dont trust us?
i think you dont trust us enough to tell us things,thats why.
I dont know if im right,and i certainly hope im not.
If you find hard enough,you'll find the time.
And,if you really want to join them,we cant stop you.
we cant force you to stay if you really feel like its a torture being with us.
Have you thought about why we said those things,why we were so 'jealous'?
Thats because we care about you.we dont want to lose you.you are important to us.
If we dont love you,we wont even give a damn where you're going and what you do.
You're feeling the pain,we are too.
You can just easily pour out your sorrows to them but not us?
we've already put ourselves in your shoes.and we're sorry.we're very willing to listen to you,if only you could come to us.
and now you should put yourself in our shoes too.
i know sometimes you were unhappy with us and you didnt show it,and it happens to us too.
Seriously we should stop blaming each other and pointing out each other's flaws.
Now i want to tell you,dont force yourself to keep away from them.If you want,you can join them.If thats not the case,i'll also not be angry if you want to carry on having conference with them etc.
you are free to do what you want.because i know you've been keeping a distance from me since a long time ago.We want to be close to you,but you didnt let us in to your heart,what you're thinking.
Its not about you talking to them now,its the trust thing.
Im not angry,and i hope you wont be when you read this.unless you didnt read it .__.

ps. i still remembered when i first met Nicole Tan,we talked pretty much and you guys were unhappy.and i was upset cus i only wanted to make more friends,instead of having only four.So jia xin,i know how you feel.i wonder if you'll will dislike me even more after you read this...